Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1
withers away @ 1:11 am
yih's right. im crazy to accept the post.
for 3 wks i havent been slping much. when i thought its all settled, smth will appear. yes smth. it can be anything. then i think evthg's settled again, and smth will appear. no doubt. from a near cancellation of items to having spoilt band speakers a few days before the concert. its alr crazy to organize a concert in such a short frame, while having to collaborate with other comms as well. and u're talking abt someone who has nv been in prog subcomm before, let alone ic.
yes, things do appear out of nowhere, less than 24hrs before the concert starts we can still have changes and addition of prog. yes, there can be only one person there to carry 200+ chairs down two flights of stairs and arrange them when its time to. yes, the speakers can reach less than 4hrs before the concert is due to start and half the items need these speakers to sound check. yes, there can be no audience when its the stipulated time for the concert to start. yes, there can still be shifting of items one min (i'm not kidding it was really one min) before the concert starts and i've got to contact everyone else affected by the change in seconds (and i missed out ppl to tell).
look, this is teaching me not to panic even if the earth is to crumble beneath my feet. i recognize that as a leader i should be the last to panic, or at least pretend to not panic. its not like i didnt know this beforehand, its not like i didnt organize smth that screwed real bad before, but now im putting it into real practice and its hitting harder than ever.
i was so uptight throughout the concert. so uptight. i couldnt relax, no i couldnt. i was clinging on to my walkie talkie like its my life. cmon even before that, during my fieldtrip, or even earlier today, i couldnt stop telling ppl of the changes made and the things they had to take note. and no, its not a sense of achievement at the end of it. its more of a sense of "ok we managed to pull thru". it wasn't a perfect show, but i guess it was good enough. but there's this moment i love alot. when u thank ppl, and ppl thank u back, with the kind of gratitude u know that is not fake.
its the first concert i put together. (of coz with everyone else lah) and its not the last.
and now that shit from one source is gone (for now), its time for this. cmon this guy has pulled me thru late nights during buaya wk (long overdue post), shit mugging, hours of crab drawing, amendments until near 10 drafts of prog flow, countless smses and emails. love this guy. to bits.
(one line of backgrd info lifted off: 兰亭序为书圣王羲之的书法作品，有天下第一行书之美誉。someone tell me wad fang wen shan studied last time? he seems to know so much! of coz as i go thru line by line word by word i start to understand more, but i think i dun get the most out of it coz i've nv done clit. or chist. or the likes of it.)
兰亭序 - 周杰伦
兰亭临帖 行书如行云流水
月下门推 心细如你脚步碎
忙不迭 千年碑易拓却难拓你的美
真迹绝 真心能给谁
牧笛横吹 黄酒小菜又几碟
夕阳余晖 如你的羞怯似醉
摹本易写 而墨香不退与你共留余味
一行朱砂 到底圈了谁
无关风月 我题序等你回
悬笔一绝 那岸边浪千叠
情字何解 怎落笔都不对
而我独缺 你一生的了解
弹指岁月 倾城顷刻间湮灭
青石板街 回眸一笑你婉约
恨了没 你摇头轻叹谁让你蹙着眉
而深闺 徒留胭脂味
人雁南飞 转身一瞥你噙泪
掬一把月 手揽回忆怎么睡
又怎么会 心事密缝绣花鞋针针怨怼
若花怨蝶 你会怨着谁
无关风月 我题序等你回
悬笔一绝 那岸边浪千叠
情字何解 怎落笔都不对
而我独缺 你一生的了解
无关风月 我题序等你回
手书无愧 无惧人间是非
雨打蕉叶 又潇潇了几夜
我等春雷 来提醒你爱谁
withers away @ 1:46 am
dun assume shit is over coz when u do, more shit comes to prove to u that it isn't over. anyway i guess i've learnt to have a smaller and smaller reaction as each shit comes. or at least to display less and less of it. and yes they come in piles. countless. u noe, uncountable? u noe, like when u ls and u can't stop. (ok this is getting weird. but its true!) and also to accept that shit happens all the time.
as long as the show goes well, i really can take anything that's thrown to me before that. as long as the audience doesnt get to see it. as long as its behind the curtains. as a performer i've been trained to put up a smile and get on with the show no matter what happens. im used to it. i guess the same goes for ppl working behind the scenes.
withers away @ 11:33 pm
guess i better do this before ppl start killing me.
Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answer to each question in the search box, then write the FIRST definition it gives you.
1.) Your name: Peishan
peishan isn't defined yet.
2.) Your age: 21
The age at which one is finally considered human.
(since we are supposed to write the first definition and everyone has the same one, i shall be bad and post the second definition as well.
The magical age where it is legally ok to get incredibly drunk. At this time, a young adult spends most of his free time consuming vast amounts of alcohol in a variety of forms, saying that they're "making up for lost years.")
3.) One of your friends: Joey
The hottest sexiest thing alive. I wanna lick his face off.
I wish my boyfriend was a Joey.
I know don't we all?
4.) What you should be doing?: Work
A worldwide slave labour organisation used to control modern man and prevent independant thought from occuring in any form. This is the reason it's much harder to make anything of yourself working in creative arts, such as acting and singing - the government sees anyone more popular than them as a threat to their power. It is also an ingenious creation to make placebos such as computers and photocopiers look important to our way of life. Some may argue that the workplace is desigend to build character and learn about teamwork...others prefer to think of it as the perfect place to practise your aiming skills as you throw ball after ball of scrunched up paper into the bin in the corner, then make a little competition out of it with fellow colleagues.
You are here to work, not to have fun!
5.) Your favorite color: Anything
Including the option of many things or passing on the decision to chose one specific thing and waiting for anyone or anything to decide or happen.
"I'm up for anything. Anal, oral, doggy style, etc."
"Anything you want, anal, oral, doggy style, etc."
"Anything's fine. Anal, oral, doggy style."
"Anything you want. Chicken, fish, me under the table jerking you off while you order for me and explain how I will be coming soon, etc."
(i like the second definition though, which is: nothing.)
6.) Your birthplace: Alexandra (Hospital. i decided to go a little different from the rest or else it'll get boring.)
One of the best friends you could ever meet. Sometimes quiet and patient but when she's around a group shes wild and fun. She is always there to listen to you and give you a hug if you need one. She is willing to try anything and is very athletic. She can talk for hours or just have no idea what's going on. She is an overall great person to be around.
Megan-who's that girl over there?
Zach-I dont know but she's really hot!
Zach-I think her name is Alexandra.
Megan-Yeah she looks like an Alexandra
7.) Last person you talked to: Myself
An idiot's substitution for the words "me" or "I". "Myself" should only be used in reflexive cases or intensive cases.
Commonly used by people who do not know the proper rules of usage for "me" and "I", or by those who were taught at an early age that "me" is a dirty word.
Incorrect usage:
We need more people like myself to do this job correctly.
Feel free to ask any of us, myself included.
Correct usage:
We need more people like I to do this job correctly.
Feel free to ask any of us, me included.
I made this myself. (intensive)
I hurt myself. (reflexive)
8.) Last thing you had to drink: Water
The 4th element required to summon Captain Planet
EARTH
FIRE
WIND
WATER
HEART
GO PLANET!
By your powers combined, I am Captain Planet!
9.) Your nickname: kitsune (same, i decided to go for something u all havent wrote.)
A mythical Japanese creature, with the ability to shapeshift - Usually takes on the shape of a fox, though.
They take on the shape of a human being to seduce others, and not unlike a vampire, they slowly feed on people's life force, able to do so in multiple short sessions.
A Kitsune can have up to nine tails, and the more tails it has, the older and wiser it is.
At the point where it has nine tails, its fur will also turn golden.
A rather well-known kitsune is Tails, the best friend of Sonic the Hedgehog.
Because of his age, he doesn't have the shapeshifting lifedraining capabilities others of his race have.
In fact, since he has only two tails, Tails is considered a very basic and young kitsune.
Possibly because of his age (8).
"Was that a fox...with THREE tails?"
withers away @ 12:42 am
我很强烈地感受得到：我是一个没有音乐就会死的孩子。不夸张，是真的。很难想象自己没有在任何music performing group的时候会怎么过活。以前做工没有音乐的时候真的怪难受的，安静的教科室又不容许我自己制造音乐，直到最后忍不住拿ipod出来听。
还有，朴实认真用心的男生真的很帅。唱歌可以很简单，就是用心去唱，再用心去听，就会很好听。看到振麟飙高音时的自信，是平时我没看过的，当下就觉得他很棒。他觉得最舒服，最开心的时候，大概也就是他在唱歌的时候吧。王力宏的kiss goodbye不好唱吧，但是压轴的那两个男生（encore不算）真的唱得不错。有没有用感情在唱，一听就听得出，骗不了人。
天啊，我爱唱歌！
withers away @ 2:39 pm
方文山-周杰伦
绝配
有人反对吗？
juz watched the mv for this. another rubbish one. chey. but its ok. i like the song. good enough. easy enough to catch lyrics, so much so that u start to get it (with his lousy pronunciation yes) after listening to it. for some time. the 1st song that caught me. seriously, nothing special, but. yeah.
说好的幸福呢 - 周杰伦 (i noe the title sux. dun remind me.)
你的回话零乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了我都还记得
withers away @ 12:15 am
maybe, if this happens often enough, i'll get used to it and be desensitized huh. maybe this is how the real world works too, no? really, when life seems to get a little easier on u, that's when u need to be prepared for some shit. it means what it says; a breather is only meant for u to take ONE breath.
coz u always have shit. it nv runs out. if not u will die if it all accumulates in your body.
but some things, i will never be desensitized to.
withers away @ 3:01 am
am i the only person who wishes pharmaco is as easy as jay's lyrics to memorize and internalize?
and
i vow to make my future notes organized, clear and easy to understand.
withers away @ 4:57 pm
plucked this off nat ho's blog. v sweet. memories.
no matter how i try to change the size it doesn't work. so there."Mom says death is as natural as birth, and it's all part of the life cycle."
"She says we don't really understand it, but there are many things we don't understand, and we just have to do the best we can with the knowledge we have."
"I guess that makes sense."
"... but don't YOU go anywhere."
"Don't worry." i wish i didn't need to.
withers away @ 1:31 pm
what i said before is true. when shit comes, it all comes at one go. but one day, the shit will go away, coz u cant be shitting all the time. keyword: WAIT for the shit to go away. dun change/say anything when you can't confirm you need to change/say it. if not u're going to spend all your time taking it back.
but is being busy a good enough reason? or excuse? haiz.
withers away @ 7:01 pm
很想磨平自己的棱角，让它不会刺伤别人，也同时刺伤自己。很在意别人看到的自己，因为它一直影响着自己看到的自己。别人看到的自己不好，自己看到的自己也跟着不好，就更别说真正的自己了。
ok patience ok. more coming up for sharing~
withers away @ 3:33 am
and this is the smallest event. HAHA. things flying everywhere, and no good when u have a lousy memory. u screw up, and the whole world will point fingers at u. HAHA. ok we're not screwing it up. nonono. screw up before and backstage can alr. nothing's happening in front of the audience.
but u know if all goes well, u'll be the one feeling that sense of achievement. hehe. its all cool man. *i hope* dear body pls dun react so violently and ever so silently thank u.
this song. this song. was watching the mv ytd, erm the night before, oh whatever no time concept anymore (mv's crap btw), and so i noticed the lyrics. jay wrote them ok. and i just went OMG with each line that appeared. this. is. it. perfect. that's why i say jay chou knows me so well. totally. mine. ok bao im kind i share with u.
给我一首歌的时间 - 周杰伦
雨淋湿了天空
毁得很讲究
你说你不懂
（我）为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默
悔得很冲动
就算这是做错
也只是怕错过
在一起叫梦
分开了叫痛
是不是说
没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后果
我能承受
这最后的出口在爱过了才有
能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠
哦 如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪
让它留在雨天
哦 越过你画的线我定了勇气 的终点
哦你说我不该不该
不该在这时候说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气
哦请告诉我
暂停算不算放弃
我只有一天的回忆
withers away @ 3:36 pm
破纪录了咯。赢了咯。开心咯。wad a rude shock. kns.
withers away @ 2:46 am
"i thought today have to register by?" "yah and she doesn't realizes it?" so does i not realizes my mistakes. honey royal jelly choya at 5am anyone? half a cup, no? just no embroidered hankies to go with it.
drink myself away
super uber low threshold these days. no good. v bad. sorry. really. emotional psychology says it well. when faced with stress, one can react either problem based or emotional based. under problem based, one tries to attack the root of the stress to solve it. under emotional based, one can get delusional and ultimately, becomes more stressed. but not all situations present a choice, no? in fact many times all situations present no choice.
changed? changed. karma never stops.
having it at hand made me recall smth. its freaking scary how well jay chou knows me.
withers away @ 1:56 pm
最后反而延迟发行，15号才出，但是中国预购版的照片我已在网上看到，所以终于有了正确的歌名。我说这第二波主打“说好的幸福呢”怎么取了这名字啊？！假歌名“失落非主流”虽然无厘头，但是至少好听多了。还以为他们会拿那中国风的歌曲作第二波主打，没想到他们选了这首我超喜欢的。但是歌名！（泣）还有封面照片！（泣）
我跟你说我要看MV！自导自演哦！
withers away @ 1:12 pm
i beat my first red light this morning. and yes, there is a camera. stupid mistake.
then coz i havent recovered from my mistake, it slipped my mind for one second to lock the car door. lucky for me the next second i rmbred.
im so dead.
no one dares to tell my dad. sorta decided to just... let the letter come and give him a shock. pls just let him explode (if he does) and complain (he sure will) to my mum while im in hall, and let him quietly leave the letter on my table. im ok with paying the fine. just dun kill me. pweeese.
withers away @ 12:32 pm
就是今天了。耐心等待正版歌词和歌名。越读越喜欢，那方文山是神仙。比青花瓷容易懂些的歌词，也容易些起得共鸣。又是那一行歌词杀了我。没用的家伙。
情字何解 怎落笔都不对 而我独缺 你一生的了解
我知道以上文字写得有些杂乱无章，零零碎碎。抱歉，睡眠不足，却又不得不把感受写出来，结果就是如此。可能，方文山是我唯一的慰藉。
withers away @ 11:34 pm
“泪水里0.9%的盐，在人类哭不出来时，只会灼伤视觉。”
withers away @ 12:10 am
damn chest pains to hell.
withers away @ 3:28 pm
我知道以下的话言重了，但是请准许我说。
这世界没有方文山配周杰伦那该怎么办啊！
我事先不知道（谁会知道啊专辑都还没出），但是第一首让我心动的果然就是他们合作的一首。又是他的那一行词虏获了我的心。当然还有那整体的感觉。那种油然而生的感动与共鸣，没办法形容。
无药可救就是这样子。我这辈子就是这样了；那就这样吧。
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得；只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢
但是，这个人的词也开始不错了哦。他的词库显然没有方文山广，但是这首的画面感还挺强的，简单的感动，让我想起我自己开始越来越喜欢回外婆家的心情。刚看完MV完整版，也是他导的哦。
对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱 堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢地走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好
不要这么容易就想放弃 就像我说的
追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧 成功名就不是目的
让自己快乐 快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机
现在终于飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐
赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了
谁在偷笑呢 我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
哦 哦 午后吉他在虫鸣中更清脆
哦 哦 阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有
稻香 - 周杰伦
withers away @ 4:40 am
wow. hy reading yielded a useful sentence.
when faced with a nasty problem, the best way is to meet it head-on as difficulties cannot be wished away and postponing action makes the predicament worse.
this is talking to me.
withers away @ 1:38 am
who are u to judge? who are u to condemn? who decides? u who think are more noble? so who decides who's noble? who decides who's more noble? who decides what's fair? who deserves what?
sometimes, truth isn't good enough, sometimes people deserve more. sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded.
withers away @ 12:44 am
the more i listen, the more i catch, the more i understand, the more im hooked.
its smth i cannot quit. pronounced dead. certified.
withers away @ 3:45 am
tonight was happening. totally. a little too much for this weak heart and little mind. but nonetheless it was pretty funXD
actually, there's no need to think too much into it. as ppl always say, let things take their natural course. when it happens, it happens. dun have preconceived notions abt stuff. nothing's for a definite in this world anyway. just take things as they come, and take it slow and easy. everything's going to be ok yeah?
on a different note,
looks like my english is coming back to me HA.
anyway, this singer doesnt exactly sing my kind of song. but she has a voice that's comfortable to listen to. well, and to buy me over, the lyrics always does the trick. but yes of coz smth else is on repeat. definitely. indefinitely.
i tell myself all the words he surely meant to say
i'll talk until the conversation doesn't stay on
wait for me i'm almost ready
when he meant let go
leave unsaid unspoken
eyes wide shut unopened
you and me
always be
you and me
always between the lines
between the lines by sara bareilles